To the muse,
Today is Thursday, 7th October, 2010. It's 10:12pm, and I should be in bed. But I wanted to write. Actually, I felt like writing last night, but it got too late. But I need to write this entry. I can't write it on the actual day itself, because it is Kenna's wedding this Sunday, so I'm writing this now.
I'm listening to some foreign music, mainly Japanese. I have been going through a phase of anime and manga recently, that it's completely immersed me. The interesting thing about music, though, is that a good piece can convey emotions exactly. You don't need to understand the words. It's also helping me sleep at night. Listening to something in another language means you don't need to think. The sound helps me sleep. Like Kara no Kyoukai. I can turn it on, and fall asleep to that. It doesn't work with all anime. Just selected ones. Maria-sama doesn't work; Strawberry Panic sometimes works, but the sure ones that no doubt help me get to sleepyland is Kara no Kyoukai, or Gattaca.
Gattaca, I understand why. The movie is all about leaving Earth, and venturing beyond this world. It helps me dream of things beyond this realm, leaving reality behind.
But Kara no Kyoukai? That's an interesting one. Cathy complained to me last week because she recommended Kara no Kyoukai to her work colleague, that it was too gory. Her colleague thinks I'm strange, because I said it was such a good anime. She didn't understand why I would find enjoyment in cannabalism, or murder.
Let me clarify though. I DIDN'T recommend KnK to her. And if I knew her tastes - Midori Days - bubblegum anime - I would not have told her to watch KnK.
Anyhow, I digress. The characters in KnK are complex. Very complex. It is not bubblegum anime. So don't watch it if you're looking for a laugh. There is a fine line between right and wrong, good and evil. It makes you question everything in reality. Well, that's how I saw KnK anyway. And the main character (Shiki) is the most complex of them all, a quiet and conflicted person, pushing everyone away from her from a young age because she saw the ugliness in people. The second protagonist in the story, Mikiya, is the archetype of the optimist. He continually believes in Shiki, getting closer to her, that she eventually gives in, and breaks down all her walls to love him.
And consequently, tries to protect him, and protect what they have. Ultimately, KnK is a love story, but it is a subtle love story. And it has a happy ending - but only after a lot of tragedy. Shiki and Mikiya only get together after five years filled with waiting, uncertainty, blood, hell, ghosts, and deaths. Shiki doesn't change much, and her changes are subtle. She is still a quiet and lonely person at the end, but she's able to find happiness with Mikiya.
Does this remind you of someone? The reason it helps me sleep is that I know I can watch it, and take comfort that not everyone can have an easy path to love. But there is hope for all of us out there. If a complicated, solitary hermit can find love no matter how hard she tries to push it away, then so can I. If Shiki can find love, only after going through everything she sees, and understands, and sacrifices, then there is hope.
For the longest time, I could never understand how some of my friends could find love so easily. Love doesn't come naturally for me. I know that.
Actually, that's not true.
It's been a long time since I was in love. Sometimes I wonder if I was actually delusional at the time.
Ah, but alas. Again, I'm going off on a tangent. This entry is for Sunday.
Sunday will mark the next chapter. No, make it the next volume.
Yes - that has a better ring to it.
Watch over me as the next volume unfolds?
From the dreamer.
Today is Thursday, 7th October, 2010. It's 10:12pm, and I should be in bed. But I wanted to write. Actually, I felt like writing last night, but it got too late. But I need to write this entry. I can't write it on the actual day itself, because it is Kenna's wedding this Sunday, so I'm writing this now.
I'm listening to some foreign music, mainly Japanese. I have been going through a phase of anime and manga recently, that it's completely immersed me. The interesting thing about music, though, is that a good piece can convey emotions exactly. You don't need to understand the words. It's also helping me sleep at night. Listening to something in another language means you don't need to think. The sound helps me sleep. Like Kara no Kyoukai. I can turn it on, and fall asleep to that. It doesn't work with all anime. Just selected ones. Maria-sama doesn't work; Strawberry Panic sometimes works, but the sure ones that no doubt help me get to sleepyland is Kara no Kyoukai, or Gattaca.
Gattaca, I understand why. The movie is all about leaving Earth, and venturing beyond this world. It helps me dream of things beyond this realm, leaving reality behind.
But Kara no Kyoukai? That's an interesting one. Cathy complained to me last week because she recommended Kara no Kyoukai to her work colleague, that it was too gory. Her colleague thinks I'm strange, because I said it was such a good anime. She didn't understand why I would find enjoyment in cannabalism, or murder.
Let me clarify though. I DIDN'T recommend KnK to her. And if I knew her tastes - Midori Days - bubblegum anime - I would not have told her to watch KnK.
Anyhow, I digress. The characters in KnK are complex. Very complex. It is not bubblegum anime. So don't watch it if you're looking for a laugh. There is a fine line between right and wrong, good and evil. It makes you question everything in reality. Well, that's how I saw KnK anyway. And the main character (Shiki) is the most complex of them all, a quiet and conflicted person, pushing everyone away from her from a young age because she saw the ugliness in people. The second protagonist in the story, Mikiya, is the archetype of the optimist. He continually believes in Shiki, getting closer to her, that she eventually gives in, and breaks down all her walls to love him.
And consequently, tries to protect him, and protect what they have. Ultimately, KnK is a love story, but it is a subtle love story. And it has a happy ending - but only after a lot of tragedy. Shiki and Mikiya only get together after five years filled with waiting, uncertainty, blood, hell, ghosts, and deaths. Shiki doesn't change much, and her changes are subtle. She is still a quiet and lonely person at the end, but she's able to find happiness with Mikiya.
Does this remind you of someone? The reason it helps me sleep is that I know I can watch it, and take comfort that not everyone can have an easy path to love. But there is hope for all of us out there. If a complicated, solitary hermit can find love no matter how hard she tries to push it away, then so can I. If Shiki can find love, only after going through everything she sees, and understands, and sacrifices, then there is hope.
For the longest time, I could never understand how some of my friends could find love so easily. Love doesn't come naturally for me. I know that.
Actually, that's not true.
It's been a long time since I was in love. Sometimes I wonder if I was actually delusional at the time.
Ah, but alas. Again, I'm going off on a tangent. This entry is for Sunday.
Sunday will mark the next chapter. No, make it the next volume.
Yes - that has a better ring to it.
Watch over me as the next volume unfolds?
From the dreamer.
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