I'm a little speechless tonight. The past nine days has felt surreal. It's a blur, like in a dream. I blogged a few years back about Winnii and Alan's first date, how it went for two days. My birthday was kind of like that. It was unforgettable, it was memorable, it was unbelievable. For the first time in a very long time, spending two days with someone just wasn't enough, and I wanted more. Much, much more.
I kind of feel like I'm standing at a cliff face right now, about to jump off. The feeling is kind of like that. And at the same time, I kind of feel like kicking myself, for not having jumped off already.
I have someone who's currently sweeping me off my feet, and I've never been treated this way. Being spoiled this way. It's an odd feeling, but a wonderful one as well. And.. It feels.. Right. Everything kind of just fell into place, transitioning seamlessly from one phase to the next. It was like clockwork.
It's been a very very long time since I've felt this way, and yet I'm hesitating. Hesitating because of the distance. Hesitating because I said to myself I wouldn't do it again. But then, just because it didn't work out last time, doesn't mean this will go down the same path. I'm more confident this will work out. I'm more confident of both our abilities to make it work.
I suppose let's see where this takes me. It's what I've been seeking, right? So.. Why am I holding back? Kick myself, pinch myself... This is not a dream.
I like this feeling.
I kind of feel like I'm standing at a cliff face right now, about to jump off. The feeling is kind of like that. And at the same time, I kind of feel like kicking myself, for not having jumped off already.
I have someone who's currently sweeping me off my feet, and I've never been treated this way. Being spoiled this way. It's an odd feeling, but a wonderful one as well. And.. It feels.. Right. Everything kind of just fell into place, transitioning seamlessly from one phase to the next. It was like clockwork.
It's been a very very long time since I've felt this way, and yet I'm hesitating. Hesitating because of the distance. Hesitating because I said to myself I wouldn't do it again. But then, just because it didn't work out last time, doesn't mean this will go down the same path. I'm more confident this will work out. I'm more confident of both our abilities to make it work.
I suppose let's see where this takes me. It's what I've been seeking, right? So.. Why am I holding back? Kick myself, pinch myself... This is not a dream.
I like this feeling.
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