The boss proved herself right

My director was right about one thing, although I do strongly believe she is only right because she has upset me so much I don't want to reconcile with her at all. She mentioned last week in passing that once a person decides to leave their current place of employment, they switch off mentally, and are not as beneficial to have around for the remainder of their time. At the time, I mentally disagreed with her, still believing I would give my all for this company where I have spent the past two and a half years living and growing, both professionally and socially.

But no, I must admit, in this instance, she is right. And proven so because I have sat at my desk the entire morning web browsing, and now consequently writing on my blog. But my reasons are entirely different now to just a mere six days ago. I have spent the past week being insulted, and now ignored since informing her of my intention to leave. I am so disgusted at her behaviour, and I fumed, silently and not so silently, for the entire duration of yesterday.

I wanted to be above all this, but I am so upset that I can't get passed it. I wanted to leave on good terms, and that doesn't seem possible. I got so upset yesterday I couldn't think straight, and I sat my desk fuming the entire day. I can't even bring myself to say anything to her, because I know if I did say something, I would end up regretting a few of my words.

I've learned a very harsh lesson, that's for sure. And other staff in the company have taken note as well. All this has made me very foul, and has left a bad taste in my mouth. It's just such a shame that I'm leaving on bad terms. Oh well. It's her loss. I'm so bitter, I honestly wonder whether I'll think of her with disgust and contempt years down the track. I don't think I will. I think I will pity her, to be honest. Fow now though, I'm disgusted. And for a while, I will stay disgusted.